Day Ten of My #SELFIEvaluation - Wearing Your Joy: My Happy Face
This post will be the most vulnerable one that I have shared with you all. Which is the reason I saved it for last.
This is about my smile. This is a part of me that I have always been EXTREMELY insecure about, and still am, this is the one that I truly am still trying to embrace about and love about myself.
This is why you never ever ever hardly see me smile in pictures showing teeth, and why candid pictures when they catch you laughing are my least favorite.
Here's a bit of a backstory:
When I was younger, my baby teeth never fell out on their own and the dentist that we saw would not pull them for some reason, so when I got older they became more impacted and the permanent teeth that were supposed to come in never did, the only way to do that was to have surgery which they would not perform until I was even older. No one in our town was capable of performing that surgery and due to my parent's busy work schedule, we just couldn't get scheduled anywhere out of town at that time.
After college, I was put on better insurance and started a journey to get them worked on, unfortunately, when I reached a certain age I was no longer able to be on my dad's insurance, so I have still not been able to afford braces.
It is still a process that I am praying I will have the finances to do soon. Until then I am learning that nobody is perfect, all of us have something or things that we hate to show for fear of what others will say or think.
You could only imagine how difficult it was for me to even post this picture, but I know that I am beautiful and even though this is something that I'm still growing to love, it will never stop me from smiling or being joyful.
I pride myself in being a pretty optimistic person, always trying to look at the bright side and enjoy this life that God has blessed me with.
As I end this journey, first off I want to say THANK YOU to all of you who read these posts, I can only pray that in some ways you were encouraged to embrace all of who you are, the good, the bad, and what you may have thought was ugly.
God created each and every one of us differently, but in His eyes all beautifully. We were created in His image, so every time you pick at things you don't like about yourself, you are looking at an image of who He is, and saying that it's not beautiful, how silly is that? But that is what we tend to do.
I hope that you will know that EVERYTHING about you is LOVELY and EVERYTHING about you is BEAUTIFUL to Him, and in the end that is the only thing that matters.
So even if I'm not the most confident about my pearly whites, I will always WEAR MY JOY because it is MY HAPPY FACE!
Love you all!